constrictor

[dedalus]

his one is going to get me into trouble but it popped out just as you see it. The juxtaposition with "Mariko" , recent and equally heart-felt, doesn't help at all, esp. if Mariko (dark-eyed and still capable of fury) happens to read this over my shoulder. It's totally reprehensible. Disgusting, when you stop to think about it. Well, never let such trifling details stop you from writing a poem!! I'm not tamed yet, still swinging from the trees. Poems come as they come: blessings from an unknown source. You grab at them and you write them down. The thing that scares the hell out of me is that the source will dry up. Basta. Finito. Dust and ashes. No more

 

Of course

I love you darling

how can you doubt me

at the moments when

you cry out and close

your doubting eyes

velveteen

feminine

and with your trust

so slender and feeble

like this

birdlike bone

beside

your throat

not

forming silly words

not now

not

sucking in ciggies

nor downing

rum and coke

 

I

could choke

you

in an instant

but

for the moment

prefer the joys

of condom love

this cry this juicy

release

of nothingness

into nothing

and you sigh

as if to say

thank god that’s over

and will you

be my boy

will you love me

forever?

 

Yes

I will love you

today

and tomorrow

and

the next day

-- I have to go now --

for as long

as

I can.