Larsen M. Callirhoe Posted August 28, 2011 Share Posted August 28, 2011 .So many days… So many days I looked into a cracked mirror. It beheld a reflection of a lachrymose child. So many nights I looked out the window only to see the many distant shining stars up above One night I dared the moon to speak words to me! She radiated and sparkled like a bright gem. My presence alone gave her peaceful happiness. The milk glow of her body was divinity itself. She said, "I also feel completely abandoned and all alone." I realized that many nights we both do lay awake crying aloud and praying to Eloah Sophia. (She is Mother Goddess the Christian Holy Ghost.) Words come to mind, people dancing in the park. Broke my neck in a car wreck destined to die all alone. My life questioned living shattered dreams. Illusions of the flames burning my essence away. In a dream I had a Angel visit me. She spoke words to me revealing that I would walk on June 6, 2018. Can I really be that patient long enough for this to let destiny find a cure for spinal chord paralysis? Will these imprudent doctors realize that people cry many tears drifting in and out of many realities. I want to walk again and dance on the clouds, too. Why can't my dreams of compassion be fulfilled? A shooting star passed by my home one day. I wished I could hold your hand once again hoping you would say I love you also Michael. These are the only words I ever wanted you to speak to me. Why do you always find it hard to say I love you? Yet you said "I do" and married me one day. Was it all just a lie being one of your many fantasies of possible fabrications? Don't you know it still hurts. All alone I sing a spiritual song I sang as a youth. Now that I am all grown up the pain pills, booze, and downers will give me the same solace that I felt back then. My mind drifts as I wish you would hear my words. In my mind I am a float along the river of my blood hoping my plea to you would ring out to your heart. Most of all I wanted children with you because you're so beautiful. I wish my heart could be as patient, too. So many nights I would yearn for you. I would whisper the words to you asking you to marry me in your dreams. I would always say to you how much I truly love you. I wish I could dance with you under the soft moonlight. We would have the mighty Angels sing serenading us. So many days I would write poetry to you from the chorus I heard from them. This would I hope spice up my words in a way that touch your heart passionately. Many years have passed as I wait for you to grow up and mature blossoming into a fine young lady. One day I bring you flowers to show you my affection for thee. We make love under the moonlight as she sang to us. So many nights I had prayed for the moment we shall embrace as I drift off to never-never-land! I hope we would never drift apart from that time forward. We meet and I sing you a love song the words bitter sweet. You dream of me as your Prince! I think of you as my Queen. I love you this is my heart Elizabeth. What more do you want from me? I worship the ground you walk upon and the flesh on your body like you are eternally divine. Even in your wisdom and age I still want to make love to you. Can your heart take eternity with me my beloved rose? ---------------------------------------------------------- Lachrymose - means to tend to cry often out of control spats. (word is proper in that place though it looses continuity. Idioms +++++ I am in the process of editing all my poems I have written since June 2000. I have written over 700 poems during that time span & I noticed that half the lines in each poem I wrote looked like pure utter garbage to me. I originally didn't want to change or edit any of my poems. But then I have noticed online some people who are really good at writing verse. So it will take me a few months to edit my poems. It will take me down memory lane of course. & I will be putting a poetry book or two together. yippee. Quote Larsen M. Callirhoe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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