Shadows And Valleys

[Larsen M. Callirhoe]

Shadows and Valleys

 

 

Somewhere in my heart the best I can hope for from

you I pray is the trust you once had for me and the

conviction of love you previously felt for me return.

 

I beg this much from you at least.. The words of hope

that you speak to me now are lost to the wind for there

is no strength in the words you speak to me anymore.

 

I still sense the emotions radiating from your presence.

Yet, there is no conviction of passion in your words you

speak to me now like there used to be. You use to be so

vividly sincere to me always having honest intentions.

Or is everything we shared in the past one great big lie.

 

Don’t deceive me anymore. For I sense the misery and grief

I have caused you. For in your soft words that you speak

to me now I can tell the confidence in the tone of your

voice and the esteem you once had in me is not there.

I know I have disappointed you. But, it is you asking the

almighty that you ask forgiveness for not being there when

I needed you most. I see this in VISIONS from *Sophia*,

 

After all my transgressions I have committed against you.

I pray the emotional outburst coming forth out of your soft

tender lips of your glaring smile and the faith of your

pulsating heart be sounds of candid sincerity. Instead of

thebloody discourse of a burden I caused you in your heart

sadly. One day I pray the above sentiment could be; knowing

as we age this wish fades further apart everyday we are

apart. I ask that the feelings from the deepness of the well

of your heart you feel for me be to have devotion in Kadesh.

 

Oh, how time stood still every time I was in your almighty

presence as fate saw it. My beloved you were covered in

blood bleeding the color that red roses portray caused by

my burdensome prickly thorns. The vision I always held

of you was me envisioning you bathing in white roses.

 

The yellow and blue roses I left you instead symbolically

I hoped would make you return to me one day eventually.

Tears I shed reluctantly were about how I never tried to

chase you after you told me your hands were tied that day.

Then I let you blow away like the wind that rustles a leaf

in the Autumn when the leaves fade colors turning rustic.

 

The colorful pastel colors of your nervous chakra shining

 

like a rainbow in my room that radiated your naked flesh

on my bed chamber that night we made love letting all

reckless abandon go out into the blowing gentle breeze.

 

For two hours we were in bliss making love.

We cared for each other then but that moment

is when we first fell in love with one another.

 

I see in visions that we will be united in the future.

I desire to make love to you like the first and only

time we ever made love. Oh how you and Joyce

fooled me that night Nalene since you only wanted

from me was a one night stand back then. But time

changes us. I cared for Joyce but did not love her

at all. It was you that I wanted all along Nalene.

 

 

Can’t you figure out this passion you feel

for me Nalene. For you broke my heart

when my Holy Angel in a dream told me

the first time I made love it was to you...

 

Nalene and not Joyce,,,

 

All I asked was WHY?

 

 

Nalene I know the reason why God wanted us to wait to

marry is that neither of us was ready to raise children.

 

 

Maybe this seems a bit crazy or far-fetched to some.

But, true love only comes around once in a lifetime

and maybe twice in a lifetime if you are very lucky.

 

Am I such a foolish heart if I fall for you

after just one romantic dance in the wind.

 

Is every song and dance always performed the same way

as the tune that is stuck repeating itself in my thoughts.

This image repeating in my head is always the same picture.

This scene is of us at our first meeting when we danced

 

like we were dancing on the clouds and flowing like the

passing wind in the starlight moonlit night as the falling rain

was touching our skin. I kissed your hand and your face blushed.

 

You are the light in my life that shines when I am so far away

from the sunlight that shines far up above. Don’t you know

I am in love with you. Doesn’t it seem all around in this world

we are surrounded by fools for it is just me and you that is real.

You came to me on a warm Summer Eve in the pouring rain.

 

 

You made the stars come out that night for me and the moon

glowed on us so brightly. Every human in the world saw us fall

in love. It was like the magic in the air that evening as the rain

from above ceased and the grey clouds dispersed

as the sky stopped crying…………………

 

885 Words! 82 Lines!

 

 

Written by V. Michael Lashewitz

On October 20, 2011 at 4:00 am!!!

Pseudonym Larsen M. Callirhoe

Modified 10/22/11 at 3:56 pm ET!!!

 

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Written by V. Michael Lashewitz

On October 20, 2011 at 4:00 am!!!

Pseudonym Larsen M. Callirhoe

 

　

 

Shadows and Valleys

 

Somewhere in my heart the best I can hope for from

you now is that you would have some trust in me yet

again and your conviction of love for me return. The

words of hope that you spoke to me I wish would be

vividly sincere and honest acceptance of me again after

the misery and grief I caused you. I pray the emotional

outburst coming forth out of your soft tender lips of

your radiating smile and the faith of your pulsating

heart be sounds of candid intentions instead of the

bloody discourse of a burden I caused you sadly

 

One day I pray the above sentiment could be; knowing as

we age this wish fades further apart everyday we are apart.

 

Somewhere from the deepness of the well your

heart I wish you could find it in your feelings

to love me the same way you once desired me.

 

Oh, how time stood still every time I was

in your almighty presence as fate saw it.

My beloved you were covered in blood

bleeding the color that red roses portray

caused by my burdensome prickly thorns

The vision I always held of you was me

envisioning you bathing in white roses.

 

The yellow and blue roses I left you instead symbolically

I hoped would make you return to me one day eventually.

Tears I shed reluctantly were about how I never tried to

chase you after you told me your hands were tied that day..

 

Then I let you blow away like the wind that rustles a leaf

in the Autumn. when the leaves fade colors turning rustic.

The colorful pastel colors of your nervous chakra

shining like a rainbow in my room that radiated

your naked flesh on my bed chamber that night

we made love letting all reckless abandon go

out the house in the night time gentle breeze.

 

For two hours we were in bliss making love.

After that I was sold and so were you.

We loved each other then but that moment

is when we first fell in love with one another.

 

　

 

I pray you cross my path in life again.

I desire to make love to you like the first

and only time we ever made love. Oh how

you and Joyce fooled me that night Nalene

since you only wanted from me was a one

night stand back then. But time changes

us. I cared for Joyce but did not love her.

It was you that I wanted all along Nalene.

 

.Can’t you figure out this passion you feel

for me Nalene. For you broke my heart

when my Holy Angel in a dream told me

the first time I made love it was to you

Nalene and not Joyce..

All I asked was WHY?

 

Since both of you do look similar

I guess it was easy to deceive me.

My Angel told me you Nalene made

your hair look like Joyce’s that night. My

Angels told me this when I was waking

up from a dream and Joyce didn‘t care

knowing I might not want her if I saw

her naked .body in the bedroom with

the sun still up in the early evening.

 

Nalene I know the reason God wanted us

to wait to marry is because you were not

ready for children and neither was I.

 

Please open yourself up to me now for I need you in my

life at this point. Please I beg this much from you at least.

Maybe this seems a bit crazy or far-fetched to some.

 

But true love only comes around once in a life

and maybe twice in a lifetime if you are lucky.

Am I such a foolish heart if I fall for you

after just one romantic dance in the wind..

 

Is every song and dance always performed the same way

as the tune that is stuck repeating itself in my thoughts,

This image repeating in my head is always the same picture.

This scene is of us at our first meeting when we danced

like we were dancing on the clouds and flowing like the

passing wind in the starlight moonlit night as the falling rain

was touching our skin. I kissed your hand and you walked away.

 

You are the light in my life that shines when I am so far away

from the sunlight that shines far up above. Don’t you know

I am in love with you. Doesn’t it seem all around in this world

we are surrounded by fools for it is just me and you that is real.

You came to me on a warm Summer Eve in the pouring rain.

 

　

You made the stars come out that night for

me and the moon glowed on us so brightly.

Every human in the world saw us fall in love.

It was like the magic in the air that evening

as the rain from above ceased and the grey

clouds dispersed as the sky stopped crying.

 

835 words

 

i rewrote this trying to trim the fat so to peakand 50 wordes were added to this. i have three versions of this already. i guess back to the old drawing board! lol...