Larsen M. Callirhoe Posted May 15, 2009 Share Posted May 15, 2009 So many days So many days i looked into the mirror i saw a reflection of a crying child. So many nights i looked out the window looking at the many distant stars. one night the moon talked to me. she was so happy to talk to me. she said like me she felt all abandoned and alone So many nights i cried aloud and prayed to the holy spirit the mother goddess of all. i said i no longer want to be alone and live my life of shattered dreams and paralysis destined to die alone. I had a dream that said i would walk again on june 6 2018. can i be so patient as the doctors look for a cure to my disability. alone i cry many tears drifting in and out of many realities. i want to walk again and dance on the clouds, why can't my dreams be fulfilled. a shootung star passed by my home one day. i wished i could hold your hand again and hope you would say i love you. this is what i have wanted to hear my whole life. why do you find it hard to say i love you yet you said i do and married me one day. was it all a lie or one of my fantasies. all alone i sing a spiritual song. in my mind a float along the river hoping my words help would ring out to you. most of all i wanted children with you because you are so beautiful. i wish my heart could be as patient as yours is regarding me. So many nights i would dream of you. I would whisper the words to you asking you to marry me. I would always say to you how much i love you. i wish i could dance with you under the moonlight and have the mighty angels seranade us. So many days i would write you poetry hoping i could touch your heart once again with the passionate words i write and say to you. many years have passed as i wait for you to grow up and mature and blossom into a lady. one day i would bring you flowers and ask you to marry me in the distant future. i would have the great budda christ marry us. we would make love under the moonlight as she the moon sang to us. she would be a full circle that night glowing on us. So many nights i would pray for this moment as i drifted asleep hoping we would never drift apart. I would sing you a love song. the words would be so bitter sweet. you dream of me as your prince and i think of you as my queen to be. i love you this is my heart elizabeth. what more do you want from me. i worship the ground you walk upon and the flesh on your body like you are divine. even in your wisdom and age i still want to make love to you. can your heart take eternity with me my beloved rose. Quote Larsen M. Callirhoe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aleksandra Posted May 15, 2009 Share Posted May 15, 2009 I read this poem more and more Vic. It is so sad poem. I know with what kind of feelings you are writing this, and thats why it makes me more sad. I wished me to be able to make your dream come true. And Vic you know, always my prayers are with you my friend. Aleksandra Quote The poet is a liar who always speaks the truth - Jean Cocteau History of Macedonia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aleksandra Posted May 15, 2009 Share Posted May 15, 2009 BW Vic I forgot to say. The last line my beloved rose. is wonderful. Metaphorically you handled with this one, on the best way Quote The poet is a liar who always speaks the truth - Jean Cocteau History of Macedonia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
goldenlangur Posted May 15, 2009 Share Posted May 15, 2009 Hi Victor, Here in this poem, the reader gets a sense of how despite your physical and emotional pain and suffering, your heart still sings for the one person you love.: "alone i cry many tears drifting in and out of many realities. i want to walk again and dance on the clouds..." In this search for a healing of heart and body you turn to the moon, the Mother Goddess and in your dreams of being blessed by the "Buddha Christ" you reach out for a universal ideal, which is very moving. May your prayers be answered and your courage and strong spirit rewarded. goldenlangur Quote goldenlangur Even a single enemy is too many and a thousand friends too few - Bhutanese saying. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tonyv Posted May 15, 2009 Share Posted May 15, 2009 I like the trope about the moon -- one night the moon talked to me. she was so happy to talk to me. she said like me she felt all abandoned and alone -- and also the one about your dream: I had a dream that said i would walk again on june 6 2018. can i be so patient as the doctors look for a cure to my disability. The specificity of the date in the part about your dream exhibits a painful reality. It's almost like when someone predicts the day the world is going to end -- it could happen, but we have to wait for the actual date to arrive in order to know. And Alek is right: my beloved rose is lovely. Tony Quote Here is a link to an index of my works on this site: tonyv's Member Archive topic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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