Of the house we never bought - thankfully

[dcmarti1]

Frost said to write of "grief, not grievances." I hope this does not come across as angry, because it is not; and I am not.

 

 

Of the house we never bought - thankfully

Eleven months

of questionable time:

was it wasted or just misused?

Intentional or unintentional,

were we just an eager pair of

almost-thirty mouths with

no better plans?

No better plans

than for me to almost

perish both from hope and from dread?

Or, in your case, me being number five,

was I a diversion or a

novelty? (I declined

to smoke your weed.)

You still smoked weed

but finally had your

own place to juggle between rent

and alimony. Your young kids just might

have ruined our lawn when the bank

would have foreclosed after

eleven months.

[tonyv]

Personal, bitter, revealing -- this poem's very much to my liking. I totally get where you're coming from on this one. Regret is difficult to manage. I don't have a lot, but I do have some, so I understand.

 

Tony

[Gatekeeper]

I don't find anger in this. Grief, subset of death - one of the pillars of poetry. If I were to organize mine, much would fall into this category.

[dcmarti1]

And thank you, Tony and Gate. Amazing what the self (mind, heart, psyche, whichever) can dredge up after 21 years and force out of a pen. Or keyboard. :)

[dr_con]

Defiant and true-I don't see much bitter or sad in this rather a momentcaptured of a lifettime of moments some bitter some sweet. Enjoyed the reflection.

 

 

DC&J

[Benjamin]

An interesting and relevant piece in which I find no anger. I believe when faced with important decisions in life (and buying a house with someone is right up there) it's better to be prudent than have the mantra of my parents era echo "you've made your bed so lay in it!" B.

[fdelano]

As already said, I find no bitterness here, nor even the "Why me Lord?" I believe the following will present your readers to take away many varied personalizing: "No better plans/than for me to almost/ perish both from hope and from dread?" Story of our lives.

[dcmarti1]

And thanks dr_con, Benjamin, and fdelano. I appreciate the three praises of defiant, relevant, and "story of our lives". Though the event was specifric to me, I was hoping that GENERAL DISAPPOINTMENT would ooze out.

 

Relevant. Damn, I like that comment. :)

[Tinker]

Hey Marti, This was revealing and I did hear a little disappointment-bitterness in "was I diversion or a novelty?" but it was fleating. As you said, "eleven months". I think most of us can relate in some way to those months. Good read.

~~Tink