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Tropism (Solstice 2013)

 

I struggled to sit today

And gave up

believing in sympathetic magic

the monk who abandoned his practice

and finally after long struggle gets it

makes my fight noble in the ongoing

drama we call our lives

 

I struggled to sit today

And I know giving up

is an illusion part of the unfolding

what was never lost can never be found

and the crows are loud in their conferring

 

I struggled to sit today

Never having been drawn to birds

I’m surprised at how often they appear

in my poetry they seem to shout from

every flowered corner drawing

the myriad directions

with a certainty

my oracle

infested

brain

 

I struggled to sit today

cannot clarify how I was filled

with stories of plant intelligence

the battles of friends with life altering

depth the crash of the living nervous system

happening on a scale never dreamed

but certainly hinted at in localized

apocalypses Did we care about caesars destruction

or the Mayan civilization crumbling in micro

what we now recreate in macro

and the billions of others

who explain their beginnings

by defining and categorizing

their ends

 

I struggled to sit today

and my therapist once asked

What do you mean by a legacy?

We are so easily confused now

conflating Dogen and Joyce

with the likes of Trump

and Murdoch the former

tried to wake from history

the later reshape it to their own

mad ends

 

I struggled to sit today

its the season of Solstice and Yule

and formative stories about the return

of the light and the people we strive with

to pass through the long winters night

and I’m grateful for those that remind me

Christ just gets in the Way and the avowed

atheists who smile warmly when I say Merry

Christmas no need to explain the night I played

scrooge and denied three times the return

of the sun making a point selfish selfish selfish

that the story still happens even without any belief

but with the faith that it is all part of the same

 

I struggled to sit today

I remember when one of my Teachers

after listening to me go on on on about

my worries saying This is enlightenment!

your life and your goal are the same

and my friend who would hide

this entire season in fear

of the death that it brings

in all fairness reflecting

on the ones we had lost

and how she taught me

Being the Star of your own

life is the thing And I got

it backwards so I

 

struggled to sit today

wanting to be all the birds

to be my cigarette to be the lost years

with my daughter to be my own story

and our Teacher said What do you mean

sit badly and we laughed and laughed and laughed

and so I want to extend this greeting

Despite our best efforts the Light returns

it never went away it never was lost

You are sitting right now

we don’t practice to Become

we practice because we are

And all of this all of this all of this

is calling us home.

 

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I KNOW I do not get all this, but I DO like these:

 

the later reshape it to their own

mad ends

 

Of course, you are now on their "enemies list". :)

 

And:

 

the people we strive with

to pass through the long winters night

 

I have never had a catastrophic, familial "movie Christmas", but 2 were spent COMPLETELY alone. Your insight here is keen.

 

And:

 

Despite our best efforts the Light returns

it never went away it never was lost

 

The universe saying, "Try and stop me!"

 

Just sayin': I do miss punctuation. ;)

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Thanks DC! Yes you got the important bits;-) As to punctuation, well its a stylistic choice, AKA Merwin, I'll drop it as soon as I'm finished with it but @ the moment it serves to help me think about the lines in ways proper syntax did not;-) So, I feel like maybe another year? Maybe shorter? Try a couple see what decisions you make the same or different.

 

Many Thanks for Commenting!

 

Con/Jur/D

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David W. Parsley

Speculative, thoughtful, nuanced, anguished. Definite echoes of Merwin here in tone and image (crows conferring is a peculiar affinity), but more ruminitive and more concretely personal. I hope all is well, doc. This piece speaks to me.

 

Thanks,

- Dave

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All is well Dave, and thank you! Yes, this is a favorite of my own recent work. Usually, I don't 'feel' a particular affinity to a piece, but sometimes, I have something that resembles 'pride' and in this, I have that rare feeling;-)

 

Many Thanks for the flattering flatter and I'm gratified it spoke to you!

 

Juris

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Interesting title and a most fascinating human piece. No matter the kaleidoscopic complexity of the mind, or how we perceive and in turn are perceived; we remain physical beings and subjects of a spinning orb. Perhaps evolution will leave behind the "chrysalis" of mankind for an intangible butterfly of higher being. Or maybe I've just recalled without thinking... "Childhood's End"... an early Arthur C. Clarke novel.... :biggrin:

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Juris, there is wisdom in letting others have their way once in awhile and not being troubled by it. It's not "selling out" or giving in. The speaker "struggled to sit," but he did it anyway. If we go to see a movie, it's not about the movie. It matters not which movie we see. It's about the going, together, to see a movie.

 

Tony

 

 

PS re the title -- I read somewhere that moths and other insects which fly toward streetlights, flames, etc. do so because they're confused. They use the moon to navigate, and the other lights throw them off course, so they just spend their time flying around and around the nearest light which has attracted them.

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Geoff and Tony- Thank you so much- I'm a huge fan of Childhood's end and Tony your take on the poem is quite enthralling;-)

 

Thank You Both!

 

Juris

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thegateless.org Come on over and check out my poetry substack y'all;-) Or if your bored, head to the Zazzle store: https://www.zazzle.com/store/gateless. If you buy anything I lose a bet, so consider that before you violate the digital rules.

 

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Very cool reading, Juris -- I read along as I listened -- and a very cool mention of PMO. Thank you for this.

 

Tony

 

 

 

 

Note:

 

It's an entertaining radio show (I listened to all of it), and Juris' reading of Tropism (Solstice 2013) starts around 22 or 23 minutes into the show for those who are short on time and would like to jump directly to it.

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I have also listened to the program, right where Tony suggested. Nice reading, Juris.

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Thanks Tony and DC. I'll do better next time! ;-)

 

Juris

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