What A Wise Man Sees

[Larsen M. Callirhoe]

What A Wise Man Sees

 

What a wise man sees

he has the power

to reason away

what he believes

 

The years pass by

and time churns away.

 

I look at the reflection of me

in the mirror.

It is like seeing a ripple affect

of my soul bouncing of the water.

 

Silently the wind whispers to me.

I hear her voice in my prayers

calling out to me

like she is mad at me

and God wants me to repent

of this deed.

 

I will mention it at the end of the poem

my sorrows and mistake

I made with Chrissy.

 

She was only fifteen.

I was twenty four

and looking for marriage.

 

I thought she was much older;

isn’t strange how life works.

God only knows

I could have been charged

with raping a minor.

 

She would have made

a very good wife in ten years.

How her body

looked like that

of a twenty year old.

 

She had curves

that attracted so much attention.

She was just not ready

to settle down.

Chrissy was a very good lover

and we had passionate sex.

But it was not love

it was of course lust.

 

She would have

rather tripped on acid

and spend all my money

foolishly then marry me.

 

She was in love

with someone else

who wanted her

for only sex.

 

She could clean

and wanted to

learn how to cook.

 

But she did not want to work

or go to school.

So I asked her to marry me.

A month later we separated.

 

I tracked her down

to the new guy

she was living with

a week later.

 

I forged a medical record.

I had gotten a blood test

to see if I had any

sexually transmitted diseases

caught from her.

 

I was clean

but changed the document

to say I had AIDS.

God the blood test

cost me a thousand dollars

since I had no medical insurance

back then.

 

She was scared to death

when she looked at

the forged document.

She clearly didn’t comprehend

how to read it.

 

I should not have done this.

I was very jealous

and very attracted to her.

I did not want her with another guy

so that is why I did what I did.

 

I confess this to the world

and realize this was wrong of me

to do this.

 

I just wanted her in bed.

She was good in the sack.

 

She got a blood test

and saw that she was clean

of sexually transmitted diseases.

 

This is one of the many mistakes

I have committed in my life.

 

Oh, how she cried

until she had a blood test

done on her.

 

I wanted to hurt her

like she hurt me

leaving me the way she did.

 

This whole scenario

reminded me of a song

written and performed

by Benny Mardones

called “Into The Night “.

 

The song sung by him

spoke of passionate love

with a minor.

 

The words were,.

“She’s just sixteen years old,

leave her alone - they said.

Separated by fools

don’t know what love is yet.

But I want you to know,

if I could fly,

I’d pick you up,

I would take you into the night,

and show you a love,

like you ever seen,

ever seen.

 

It’s like having a dream

where nobody has a heart.

It’s like having it all

watching it fall apart.

I would what till the end.

Time for you,

and do it again,

it’s true.

I can’t measure my love,

there is nothing to compare it to.

But I would want you to know,

if I could fly

I’d pick you up,

and show you a love,

like you ever seen,

ever seen.”

 

As you see

this is a powerful song.

It pretty much sums up

my affair with her.

 

The rest of the song

is just the refrain.

 

I miss her..

How could someone not miss

someone they had sex with.

 

There is not a day that goes by

that I think about my deeds

I shared with her.

 

As you can see by my poetry

I have written in the past.

I have many regrets

and this is just one of them.

Right before we broke up,

Oh I would say maybe two weeks

before we broke up

and were not an item anymore

I threw alcohol in her eyes.

It must have burned her eyes.

This much I feel remorse for

indeed.

 

She made me real mad

showing attention

to another man.

‘

Maybe he was not another man

but just a fool

like I was.

 

Falling in love with her

what a sucker and fool I was.

 

Oh Chrissy,

only if you were older

and maturer.

 

I’m sure things

would have worked out

differently.

[pawn shop]

Wild story. Lots of interesting twists and turns.

This was a fun read for me, for sure !

[Larsen M. Callirhoe]

Wild story. Lots of interesting twists and turns.

This was a fun read for me, for sure !

 

thanks Jonathan for commenting on this one. i worked on it for five days. i listened to the song over thirty times to get the lyrics to it correct. the idea about this concept of this poem actually came from two of your poems g i joe and the one about the lady reappearing in your life. i hope i did this poem justice like those two very good poems by you.

 

larsen aka victor

[tonyv]

I know the song well, Victor. It's one of those '80s contemporary classics. I dunno about fifteen anywhere in the US , but I'm pretty sure sixteen is the "age of consent" for a girl in Rhode Island -- check your state law. Consent for what? I wouldn't know. It's not really relevant to my personal situation -- it's just trivia.

 

One can certainly relate to the feelings expressed in these parts --

^{Larsen M. Callirhoe wrote:}

 

I should not have done this.

I was very jealous

and very attracted to her.

I did not want her with another guy

so that is why I did what I did.

 

I wanted to hurt her

like she hurt me

leaving me the way she did ...

 

I miss her..

How could someone not miss

someone they had sex with ...

 

There is not a day that goes by

that I think about my deeds

I shared with her.

 

She made me real mad

showing attention

to another man.

I like the confessional nature of this poem. Thanks for keeping it real.

 

Tony

 

PS -- Anytime you need the lyrics to a song, you can find them easily on Google, so you don't have to listen to the song 30 times ... unless, of course, you want to.

[pawn shop]

^{Larsen M. Callirhoe wrote:}

 

the idea about this concept of this poem actually came from two of your poems g i joe and the one about the lady reappearing in your life.

 

I inspired you? Cool !!

I love to hear it ! I didn't think I inspired anyone except the tax-man !

Thank you for the wonderful compliment !

[Frank E Gibbard]

Awesome sledgehammer stuff Larse, on the acid high of poetic inspiration I think here. Frank

[Larsen M. Callirhoe]

^{tonyv wrote:}

 

I like the

confessional

nature of this poem. Thanks for keeping it real.

 

Tony

 

PS -- Anytime you need the lyrics to a song, you can find them easily on Google, so you don't have to listen to the song 30 times ... unless, of course, you want to.

 

 

tony - i would have looked it up the lyrics of this song on the internet, but when i wrote the poem i had no internet connection for nine days because of hurricane Ike lol. i live in central northern USA Cincinnati Ohio right by northern Kentucky and of all things we were hit by the remnants of this f--king storm of all things. i had to do a system restore on my computer to log onto the internet. i had spent last Monday and Tuesday on the phone with fuse Cincinnati bell technicians 12 hours each day to figure out what the problem was on my computer trying to figure out why i couldn't log on to the internet. the technicians help me reset so much stuff on the computer and all that was needed was a system restore for Christ sake eventually there was something the several technicians and i both missed.

 

vic

 

PS. i love that song so i had no problem listening to it over and over again

[tonyv]

^{tonyv wrote:}

 

I like the

confessional

nature of this poem. Thanks for keeping it real.

 

Tony

 

PS -- Anytime you need the lyrics to a song, you can find them easily on Google, so you don't have to listen to the song 30 times ... unless, of course, you want to.

 

 

tony - i would have looked it up the lyrics of this song on the internet, but when i wrote the poem i had no internet connection for nine days because of hurricane Ike lol. i live in central northern USA Cincinnati Ohio right by northern Kentucky and of all things we were hit by the remnants of this f--king storm of all things. i had to do a system restore on my computer to log onto the internet. i had spent last Monday and Tuesday on the phone with fuse Cincinnati bell technicians 12 hours each day to figure out what the problem was on my computer trying to figure out why i couldn't log on to the internet. the technicians help me reset so much stuff on the computer and all that was needed was a system restore for Christ sake eventually there was something the several technicians and i both missed.

 

vic

 

PS. i love that song so i had no problem listening to it over and over again

 

I remember hearing about that hurricane Ike and thinking it was somewhere down on the gulf coast, so I didn't pay much attention to it. I didn't realize it spanned that far north. I have a dear friend in Columbus, whom I haven't heard from, but that is not so close to Cinci. Anyway, I'm glad you're okay, and that your connection is back. Believe me, I know how frustrating computer and connection problems can be.

 

Tony

[Larsen M. Callirhoe]

yep tony. that storm had tropical force winds all the way to north eastern Canada. it was a freak of nature. we had hundreds of thousands of knocked down trees because of a minor drought here. the storm also knocked down thousands of power lines here, i never expected to be hit by a hurricane in central northern USA lol.

 

take care my friend.

 

vic