Larsen M. Callirhoe Posted May 17, 2009 Share Posted May 17, 2009 What A Wise Man Sees What a wise man sees he has the power to reason away what he believes The years pass by and time churns away. I look at the reflection of me in the mirror. It is like seeing a ripple affect of my soul bouncing of the water. Silently the wind whispers to me. I hear her voice in my prayers calling out to me like she is mad at me and God wants me to repent of this deed. I will mention it at the end of the poem my sorrows and mistake I made with Chrissy. She was only fifteen. I was twenty four and looking for marriage. I thought she was much older; isn’t strange how life works. God only knows I could have been charged with raping a minor. She would have made a very good wife in ten years. How her body looked like that of a twenty year old. She had curves that attracted so much attention. She was just not ready to settle down. Chrissy was a very good lover and we had passionate sex. But it was not love it was of course lust. She would have rather tripped on acid and spend all my money foolishly then marry me. She was in love with someone else who wanted her for only sex. She could clean and wanted to learn how to cook. But she did not want to work or go to school. So I asked her to marry me. A month later we separated. I tracked her down to the new guy she was living with a week later. I forged a medical record. I had gotten a blood test to see if I had any sexually transmitted diseases caught from her. I was clean but changed the document to say I had AIDS. God the blood test cost me a thousand dollars since I had no medical insurance back then. She was scared to death when she looked at the forged document. She clearly didn’t comprehend how to read it. I should not have done this. I was very jealous and very attracted to her. I did not want her with another guy so that is why I did what I did. I confess this to the world and realize this was wrong of me to do this. I just wanted her in bed. She was good in the sack. She got a blood test and saw that she was clean of sexually transmitted diseases. This is one of the many mistakes I have committed in my life. Oh, how she cried until she had a blood test done on her. I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me leaving me the way she did. This whole scenario reminded me of a song written and performed by Benny Mardones called “Into The Night “. The song sung by him spoke of passionate love with a minor. The words were,. “She’s just sixteen years old, leave her alone - they said. Separated by fools don’t know what love is yet. But I want you to know, if I could fly, I’d pick you up, I would take you into the night, and show you a love, like you ever seen, ever seen. It’s like having a dream where nobody has a heart. It’s like having it all watching it fall apart. I would what till the end. Time for you, and do it again, it’s true. I can’t measure my love, there is nothing to compare it to. But I would want you to know, if I could fly I’d pick you up, and show you a love, like you ever seen, ever seen.” As you see this is a powerful song. It pretty much sums up my affair with her. The rest of the song is just the refrain. I miss her.. How could someone not miss someone they had sex with. There is not a day that goes by that I think about my deeds I shared with her. As you can see by my poetry I have written in the past. I have many regrets and this is just one of them. Right before we broke up, Oh I would say maybe two weeks before we broke up and were not an item anymore I threw alcohol in her eyes. It must have burned her eyes. This much I feel remorse for indeed. She made me real mad showing attention to another man. ‘ Maybe he was not another man but just a fool like I was. Falling in love with her what a sucker and fool I was. Oh Chrissy, only if you were older and maturer. I’m sure things would have worked out differently. Quote Larsen M. Callirhoe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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