JoelJosol Posted April 22, 2018 Share Posted April 22, 2018 Despite the promise to make me comfy in this cold bed, the first time I laid down in it I asked please put me into deep sleep, so deep even if death stole me from lawyers who could not bring me back, only my body would convulse against the error of a machine mis-configured, or against a surgeon who mis-heard or mis-read or whatever else he missed, but not my wakeful thoughts strapped in it- to record the tensed voices, to actively compute the pain, to calculate how many minutes more are left, to feel the dread of the last breath until it is gone. I prefer to go into a deep sleep in this cold bed. I already have a blanket. Just pull it up to my head when done. Quote "Words are not things, and yet they are not non-things either." - Ann Lauterbach Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dcmarti1 Posted April 26, 2018 Share Posted April 26, 2018 This is not resignation, this is determination. Forceful piece! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dr_con Posted April 27, 2018 Share Posted April 27, 2018 Dark and comforting simultaneously. Very enjoyable;-) Thanks JJ! Juris Quote thegateless.org Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
David W. Parsley Posted April 27, 2018 Share Posted April 27, 2018 A poetic Living Will addressed to the universe. I like what both dc and doc say here, the focused balance between acceptance and a calm insistence on setting terms. Parallels thoughts that I have been walking through myself lately. Nicely done, Joel. - Dave Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tinker Posted April 28, 2018 Share Posted April 28, 2018 Wow Joel, This is intense. ~~Tink Quote ~~ © ~~ Poems by Judi Van Gorder ~~ For permission to use this work you can write to Tinker1111@icloud.com Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoelJosol Posted April 28, 2018 Author Share Posted April 28, 2018 Thank you guys for the read. I have been through several rides on that cold bed. I reflected on the instances where I am awake there and heard everything, and the instances that I dozed off. I reflected on the thought if I want to hear them exclaim an error has been made, a mis-procedure, the staff debating, or the surgeon scolding another, something bad happening that I cannot see but hear. Of course, it was all fictional. But, I wanted to walk the reader into that journey with me. You guys captured the reflection and the posture. Thanks. Quote "Words are not things, and yet they are not non-things either." - Ann Lauterbach Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Terry L shuff Posted May 10, 2018 Share Posted May 10, 2018 I had quite an experience 5 years ago. the hospital staff was trying to get me in an MRI machine but the pain of my collapsed 3 vertebra was horrendous. After 3 doses of morphine through intervenes injections. I died literally. When they brought me back there was nothing to remember about being dead,just a deep sleep. Coming back was difficult,and time was slowed considerably. But no fear or out of body experience. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tonyv Posted May 11, 2018 Share Posted May 11, 2018 I'm glad it was fictional, Joel. I enjoyed the poem and everyone's thoughtful remarks. Tony Quote Here is a link to an index of my works on this site: tonyv's Member Archive topic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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