Larsen M. Callirhoe Posted May 24, 2009 Share Posted May 24, 2009 i do believe my poem has spiritual concepts in it. i do talk about atheists but what i said about atheists was not attacking them... it is my belief. i know i can't change them. so i don't expect atheists to understand this poem. i talk about spirits and angels. something that i know atheists proclaim don't exist but yet i had experiences that were more than drug induced or sleepless haluncinations. what i said about atheists in this poem is not negative it is just from my point of view and life experiences as to why i worded atheists belief as a lie. to tell you the truth i believe this whole world is full of holes and lies. if atheists can speak their minds in poems i respect it because it is their life vantage point. i dont get offended by much anymore after whati have been thru paralysis, osteomylitis, divorce, my ex having a miscarrage of my son in a car accident the day i became paralysised, being kicked out of my home when i was a teenager, and having to be treated like garbage by blacks but not all blacks in the last facility i lived in. i am not prejudice, racist, or bigot. Faces (changes thru the years of my life) Like a mirror that is broken and sends out a broken reflection so is my body battered and bruised. God has broken my spirit. I pray to be no more. I wish that atheists were correct that there is no God but that is a lie God does exist unfortunately. I wish nihilism was the truth like atheists proclaim. I am a Seer of God and have been revealed many of his haunting endearing secrets. I do know God exists because I have had twenty-one Near Death Experiences coined (NDE’s). I have also had numerous Out of Body Experiences coined (OBE”s) and many spiritual revelations, visions, and dreams also. I see spirits coming and going from many dimensions and realms and I hear their voices also. Psychiatrists have labeled me as psychotic and bi-polar because of what I have revealed to them foolishly. I know God is a male because I have seen his reflection in a vision. It does say in scripture the pure in heart will see God. I also didn’t see his face because scripture also says no man has ever seen the face of God. I cry in loneliness wondering if secretly God does this also. My dreams in life always seem to be shattered somehow. When I was a teenager I watched my great grand mother become bed ridden. I wept every night for three weeks after she passed away. I was the only one there at her side when she passed on. The Angel of Peace Gladdiah comforted me and I stopped weeping. I only know this presences name because a few years ago she visited me. I saw the light fade from her eyes that night when I went to bed. You see my father had kicked me out when I was fifteen years old at that time a year before she passed away. Two years later my church youth director fondled my legs. I told no one because I cared for him dearly. Sadly he went to jail for child molestation and I asked for his release knowing he was not innocent. In the future several years later I would marry after spending a year un the United States Army first and be on a life high. Unfortunately after a stunning honeymoon on the beach in Naples, Florida three weeks later we would be in a horrible car wreck and I would become paralyzed a incomplete Quadriplegic. The reason I married such a young bride was because my first lover was sixteen when I was twenty-four several months before I started dating my ex-wife I became lonely when my first lover dumped me. Joyce I knew my whole life and she disappointed me. We grew up in the same church. We knew each other’s our whole life’s. We had such a beautiful marriage in the church we grew up in together. But alas after the car accident in August of 1996 then two years later our marriage was destroyed because we had no foundation to build our marriage upon. I would become independent living in a apartment drinking herbal tea and wines and alcohol scaring people with my spiritual experiences which are vast indeed. During that time I suffered with a bone infection called Osteomylitis which is even more painful then paralysis sciatica nerve pain. I spent thirteen long excruciating months in a hospital alone and this is when I was broken and became mad at God. Jesus Christ disappointed me in a vision before my wife left me. I am now more Wicca and a Sophia believer with a Christian foundation.. Now I reside in nursing homes and write poetry belonging to several spiritual forums and several poetry forums. I keep busy but I’m mad at God because he couldn’t put my Elizabeth with me until after the Lamb of God’s return. I really would of loved to grow up with my soul mate in this uncaring world, So much we could of shared. But alas God wanted me to do his will first. which makes me a sad broken Spirit. . Quote Larsen M. Callirhoe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tonyv Posted May 24, 2009 Share Posted May 24, 2009 Your poem explores complexities of humanity and faith, Victor. Anger and reverence for God synthesize into a bittersweet reality and an acceptance of the same. That aspect is best expressed here: I wish that atheists were correct that there is no God but that is a lie God does exist unfortunately. I wish nihilism was the truth like atheists proclaim. In addition to this effective technique which you have employed, I also enjoyed (as always) how you have drawn from your own life and incorporated your personal experiences into the poem. Well done! Tony Quote Here is a link to an index of my works on this site: tonyv's Member Archive topic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rhymeguy Posted May 24, 2009 Share Posted May 24, 2009 This work has a very Jobesque quality to my mind- "Though He slay me, yet shall I trust Him." It details all the abuses yet holds onto faith. In the end when Job finally confronts God the answer he gets is- I'm God, I do as I see fit. You seem to have caught this spirit well. The first 2 verses were especially poignant for me. rg Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dr_con Posted May 24, 2009 Share Posted May 24, 2009 Larsen, an amazing biographical piece, filled with poignant detail and full of a visionary brilliance- The language is rough at several points i.e. We knew each other’s our whole life’s Which could read: We knew each other our whole lives- But that's just cleaning. Well done! and you may have inspired the another poem I've been working on- hammering in the final nail as it were! Much Appreciation! DC Quote thegateless.org Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Larsen M. Callirhoe Posted July 20, 2009 Author Share Posted July 20, 2009 dr. con i will touch this one up in a few places. i believe honesty is the best policy but drug induced visions and dreams are not reliable even if not fabricated. glad i could be of service. victor aka larsen Quote Larsen M. Callirhoe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
goldenlangur Posted July 23, 2009 Share Posted July 23, 2009 Hi victor, A powerful opening to a work that is full of emotion and an impassioned plea for happiness: Like a mirror that is broken and sends out a broken reflection so is my body battered and bruised The honesty with which you write is admirable and as always your poem move the reader deeply. Thank you. Quote goldenlangur Even a single enemy is too many and a thousand friends too few - Bhutanese saying. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Aleksandra Posted July 25, 2009 Share Posted July 25, 2009 Dear Victor, this is hard poem to read, and realizing how the life can be hard. I agree with all who commented on this poem. And indeed it's interesting how you include your life and experience in your poetry. The faith is something what makes us alive. The anger is understandable. Best wishes Vic. Aleksandra Quote The poet is a liar who always speaks the truth - Jean Cocteau History of Macedonia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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