pots Posted October 15, 2022 Share Posted October 15, 2022 I want to cry, I really want to cry, I want to cry and sob and just let the tears flow. I want to collapse on the floor in a sobbing heap and cry my heart out. I want to hold my arms out for someone to hold me just for once. I want to blubber and not be judged as I garble my fears and worries. I want this release of emotion I need this relief but it will never happen. Why!? Because I am man, I am a big man, I am a strong man, I am a mans man, men like me have no worries, men like me are in control, my colleagues do not take liberties with me, men like me have no weak points. I am the epitome of man, married and never strayed still in love with my wife, three kids raised on the straight and narrow, discipline a byword in our house, I am the protector of my family, the outside world will not get beyond me. Beating at my chest everyday the outside world stops here. I will protect my family for I am man! I am not allowed emotion I am not allowed tears I am not allowed weakness for I am DAD, I am HUSBAND, I am MAN. I must hide my fears and hold back my tears, my shoulders must appear broad they must appear strong, strong enough to carry their fears, their worries, their illnesses, they must not droop, mine are the shoulders they cry on mine are the arms that comfort them, they look to me for all of the answers, I am their Solomon, but I am no king. In the deepest hour of night when the home is asleep I sit in the dark and quietly I cry. I cry for someone to listen to me, I cry for someone to understand my fears my insecurities, I cry for someones broad shoulders to weep on, I cry because I'm embarrassed that I'm crying. I dry their tears, but who dries mine? I soothe their fears, but who will soothe mine? I cannot turn to another man for this for I am, man, I cannot turn to my wife for this for fear I will frighten her, and my children, they must never know. And so I smile, I smile to assure them, I smile to hide my fears, I smile and say everything is fine. Tonight, when the house is asleep I will sit alone in the dark and I will cry, no one will hear me, no one will know. Reply , Reply all or Forward Send Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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